What to watch??

Good TV is tonight (that is what I’ve called Thursday night TV since college) AND my Traveling DVD arrived in the mail yesterday…what’s a girl to do?

TGI Tivo is all I can say

September 27, 2007. fun stuff. 4 comments.

Ellis Paul/God’s Promise-with interview

September 27, 2007. Song of the Week. 1 comment.

Song of the Week

More like Song of the Fortnight or something.

I’ve been thinking quite a bit about faith and my old views of religion and God. I promise this won’t get too heavy. This is another E.llis Paul song. It is actually Woody G.uthrie’s lyrics set to music by Ellis.

G.od’s P.romise
from the album
I DIDN’T PROMISE YOU
SKIES PAINTED BLUE
ALL COLOR’D FLOWERS ALL Y’R DAYS THRU
I DIDN’T PROMISE YOU SUN WITH NO RAIN
JOYS WITHOUT SORROWS
PEACE WITHOUT PAIN

ALL TH’T I PROMISE
IS STRENGTH FOR THIS DAY
REST FOR MY WORKER AND LIGHT ON Y’R WAY
I GIVE YOU TRUTH WHEN YOU NEED IT
MY HELP FR’M ABOVE
MY UNDYING FRIENDSHIP
MY UNFAILING LOVE

I NEVER DID PROMISE YOU
CROWNS WITHOUT TRIALS
FOOD WITH NO HARD SWEAT Y’R TEARS WITHOUT SMILES
HOT SUNNY DAYS
WITHOUT COLD WINTRY SNOWS
NO VICT’RY WI’THOUT FIGHTIN
NO LAUGHS WITHOUT WOES

ALL TH’T I PROMISE
IS STRENGTH FOR THIS DAY
REST FOR MY WORKER MY LITE ON Y’R WAY
I GIVE YOU TRUTH WHEN YOU NEED IT
MY HELP FR’M ABOVE
UNDYING FRIENDSHIP
MY UNFAILING LOVE

I SURE DIDN’T SAY I’D GIVE YOU
HEAVEN ON EARTH
A LIFE WITH NO LABOR NO STRUGGLES NO DEARTHS
NO EARTHQUAKES NO DRYSPELLS
NO FIREFLAMES NO DROUGHTS
NO SLAVING NO HUNGERS NO BLIZZARDS NO BLIGHTS

ALL TH’T I PROMISE
IS STRENGTH FOR THIS DAY
REST FOR MY WORKER MY LITE ON Y’R WAY
I GIVE YOU TRUTH WHEN YOU NEED IT
MY HELP FR’M ABOVE
UNDYING FRIENDSHIP
MY UNFAILING LOVE

I PROMISE YOU POWER
THIS MINUTE THIS HOUR
THE POWER YOU NEED
WHEN YOU FALL DOWN TO BLEED
I GIVE YOU MY PEACE AND MY STRENGTH TA PULL HOME

MY LOVE FOR ALL RACES ALL CREEDS AND ALL KINDS
MY FLAVORS MY SAVOURES MY CREEDS OF ALL KINDS
MY L O V E FOR MY RACES ALL COLORS ALL KINDS
MY L O V E FOR MY RACES ALL CREEDERS ALL KINDS
MY SAVOURES MY FLAVOURES MY DANCERS ALL KINDS
MY DANCERS MY PRANCERS MY SINGERS ALL KINDS
MY FLAVOURES MY SAVOURES MY DANCERS ALL KINDS
Words by Woody G.uthrie, 1955 Copyright 2002 Woody G.uthrie Publications, BMI (This version edited by Ellis P.aul from a longer piece.)

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Sorry for the all caps

I need this is a little spiritual reality check…I’m not promised anything, only the power to make it through this minute. ‘The power I need when I fall down to bleed’…maybe it’s the part about falling down (or more likely bleeding) but I listen to this song on repeat far too often. If this was back in the day of tapes or records it’d be worn thing but I gain such strength it. They’ll be ‘no victory without fighting’…but I will fight!

Here’s a video of the song if anyone is interested. Starts with an interview, the song starts at 1:42.
Ok… so I can’t figure out how to do the video in this post…it’ll follow

September 27, 2007. Song of the Week. Leave a comment.

the things we do for family

My poor mom had outpatient surgery on her foot yesterday and is so sick today. My dad had to go out of town this afternoon so she’s stuck being sick into bowls and leaving them (she’s has crutches but isn’t supposed to be upright at all the first 3 days). So I left work around 10:30 and came over to help take care of her. Got some S.altines and G.atorade and she’s a new woman (I think it was really the anti-nausea meds that did it).

In her drug induced state she kept saying what a great mom I’d be…I just want to cry…

September 26, 2007. family. 3 comments.

good morning to me

Love waking up to this email from my cousin…

Hello Everyone!

As most of you know K & S had pictures taken at G.lamour Shots a while back. Those photos were entered into a contest & the grand prize is a $3000 savings bond, however Glamour Shots did not tell us that it was based on outside votes! If you get a chance to get on the website & give the gals a vote it would be greatly appreciated! J Go to www.g.lamourshots.com click on the “contests” tab, then click on Kids Portrait Contest/ browse & vote, then go to 0-1 & search by first name “S” & vote, & then go to 2-4 & search by first name “K” & vote! Pass this on to everyone you know! THANKS, Casie! J

Nothing I wanted to do more this morning then scan through hundreds of pages of adorable little babies. Being a good cousin, I did but it sucked.

**and I am SOOOO not sending this out so other people can vote…that’s why I took their names out 🙂

September 25, 2007. arg, family. 3 comments.

Meds arrived this morning

and it’s put me in a really weird place. I’ve gone back and forth between being sad, scared, nervous, excited, anxious, impatient. Seriously, you pick the emotion and I’ve felt in the last 9 hours. Poor Mr H, he doesn’t know what to make of me.

Looking forward to seeing the DC ladies tomorrow! I promise to be in a better mood by then

September 22, 2007. DC GTG, IUI. 7 comments.

today’s horoscope

I love it when I can pull something good out of my horoscope. For all the Geminis out there:

It’s as if there is a something attaching your emotions to everything you encounter now and your regular lightheartedness isn’t enough to shake it.

I am usually the most upbeat, positive person and I don’t like who I’ve become lately. I’m bitter, I snap quickly, I pick fights with poor Mr H all the time for no reason, I’m moody and it just sucks. There is something attached to everything I do all day long and I can’t get rid of it. It’s the ultimate chip on the shoulder.

I’m not sure what to do about it. I used to think recognizing it is the first step. But I’ve recognized it before but it takes work to really shake it. Kinda like those 30 pounds I’m losing. I recognize I’ve gained it, and last week I was gung-ho about it, but now I’ve stopped putting in the work. I do the same thing with my attitude and mental health. I get on this “I’m going to be happy” kick but then stop putting in the work after a week or so. Maybe because being happy never used to be work….and I still think it shouldn’t be.

All I know is that I don’t want to be this way, feeling like crap and spewing my negative vibes all over the place. It’s too damn exhausting.

September 20, 2007. feelings, IF. 4 comments.

why??

Greetings from Bitter-ville!

Why do so many women feel the need to bring their babies to work? Especially when one works in a germ-y school. Three people today brought their 12-18 month old in. I’m sure I’ll do it too, but right now, I just don’t get it.

And why, when these women bring their babies to work, does everyone else have to comment on how hard it must be to work and have a baby? No shit it’s hard to juggle, but everyone has a life outside of their work they are trying to balance. Working moms don’t have the market cornered on that one.

And tonight is back to school night and I know several of the parents are going to comment on my wine and Chubby Hubby belly and ask if I have any announcements for them…

September 19, 2007. arg. 5 comments.

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September 18, 2007. family, IF. Enter your password to view comments..

Did you know…

that for some people it doesn’t cost anything to have a baby??

Someone we used to work with came by for a visit this morning sporting a big old pregnant belly. She sits down in my office to chat and catch up. Of course she asks the dreaded question, “So when are you going to get one of these?” and points to her stomach. I reply with my non-answer, “I’m still working those extra consult hours, trying to make some more money”. All of us recognize that I did not answer the question and would probably stop there. But no, she says “it doesn’t cost anything to make’em…that’s the fun part!” Really….fun….I stopped having fun a LOOONNNGGGG time ago. And doesn’t cost anything??? I don’t even know what to say to that. I’m lucky enough to have some insurance coverage and I’m over a thousand dollars before even starting a treatment cycle. (I completely recognize that 1000 is pocket change compared to what some of you have spent but I’m just fired up)

I suppose this is one of the arguments for telling people….I could have done some education there but instead I didn’t say anything and luckily my walkie went off calling me into a classroom.

sorry for the vent…I think I’ve got a short fuse this morning or something, everyone is pissing me off and she just sent me over the edge.

September 18, 2007. arg. 7 comments.

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