and it’s put me in a really weird place. I’ve gone back and forth between being sad, scared, nervous, excited, anxious, impatient. Seriously, you pick the emotion and I’ve felt in the last 9 hours. Poor Mr H, he doesn’t know what to make of me.
Looking forward to seeing the DC ladies tomorrow! I promise to be in a better mood by then
I’m wondering if I’m ever going to feel rested on a Monday?
I’ve always been a bad sleeper but last night was exceptionally bad. The cat woke me up around 4:30. I rolled over onto my stomach (I can usually always fall asleep like that) and (TMI alert) my nips felt like someone was sticking daggers through them. Now I’m only 2 dpo and don’t usually ever even think symptoms (I’ve been too conditioned by all my failures). Of course that then sent my mind racing for the next 2 hours…which was just the time my alarm was supposed to go off!
So now I know I’m going to drive myself crazy for the next 2 weeks. I know it’s way to early but it’s out of my control at this point, I know I’m not going to be able to stop. I never know which is better…no hope at all or that little tiny glimmer. And why does that glimmer have to occur at 4 am…I would have been just as excited if it happened during normal waking hours.
I’m doing a training all week and I really feel bad for the poor folks that had to spend 7 hours with me today. I don’t think I made any sense at all. Guess we’ll be doing a lot of review tomorrow morning!
Also, I’m toying with the idea of a Song of the Week post. A folk singer’s message board that I’m on does that and I love hearing other people’s interpretations of the artist’s words. Music is always so healing for me and I have so many songs that have spoken to me along this journey. I might start it this week. You can rest assured that it will not be a weekly Monday post!!
Had a fantastic dinner with the DC ladies last night. I really appreciate how you all welcomed a newcomer into your group. I had a great time but wanted to apologize for being so quiet and withdrawn at first (that is so not me). Last night was the first time out of the IF closet and only the 2nd time I’ve spoken about all of this with anyone besides Mr H or my doctors. It was a little weird at first. But it was great to be with normal people who are all going through this. I am so excited to meet the rest of you ladies.
Off to see what’s in the DVR and settle into bed for the night!
We got the letter today from our insurance company saying that they won’t approve an IUI with C.lomid and injectibles…they’ll only approve C.lomid. I need to double check our plan but they are saying that do not approve any injectible IUI cycles. Which makes no sense to me. Technically we hit their criteria to be able to go straight to IVF (2+ years trying) which would cost them a lot more money than this little IUI. Since we aren’t going to do the IUI until October we’ve got some time to fight with them. I’m not going to be holding my breath though.
We also got the car tax bill today too. yeah…
Aside from all that we had a great weekend. Met some friends in Georgetown and had a 3 hour lunch in the basement of Pizza P.aradiso. We were there with some beer lovers and they’ve got such an amazing selection of beer on tap. Needless to say neither of us could drive home after lunch. We ended up walking over to D.umbarton Oaks and walking through the gardens. I had never been but it was beautiful! I definitely want to go back there sometime. It was such a peaceful place.
Dinner tonight with the DC Stirrup Queens–I’m so excited about it!
I just randomly found out about a DC GTG from another blog I read and am SOOO excited!! I added some people to my blog list but not everyone (since I’m at work and in theory should be working). I’ll finish checking out some of the other ladies’ blogs this afternoon.
Anywho, I’m beyond excited to have some RL people to who ‘get’ me. I can’t wait!